Memories

4.55 a.m - I wake up from my sleep. The loud sound of speaker that echoes from my laptop stops my dream. Suddenly,I think of school session as school holiday is about to the end. I realize that now I'm a Saserian,not a Bainunian anymore. Back then,I never believe and care about what my seniors say about suffer that they face as they move to SBP/MRSM. They claim that they are not happy with their life there even one of my seniors that has a great communication skills take almost a year to adapt with the new school's environment. I know why they experience that. MEMORIES - it's the answer.

It's true that past MEMORIES in Bainun makes me to act like this. I always get tense and easily to drop my tears as this new place is totally difference with lots of sucks laws that I need to follow. Bainun is different. Even when I was in Form 1,I never felt such this horrible moment because every moment that I spent there was terrific and enjoyable compare to Saser,it's like a place with thousands of problems. 

I have to make a confession here - during the first week there,I cried. I'm not a weak person,but it was hard for me to accept the reality that all the best moments I had before had gone. I never tell my classmates that I'm not happy being there,instead I hide everything that I feel. I know that they are not going to understand about it. Only Bainunians can feel the sorrow just like my case,thanks to Alif(my Bainun's classmate) able to understand what I face while being there. 

Sometimes,I regret with my decision. I'm getting frustrated as one of my seniors are able to score 9A in SPM with 7A+ and 3A. She's not a geeky who just learn about 24/7. She was the active student. Just name it...school prefect's hi - com,orchestra musician,netball player and many more. But,still she manages to achieve such a great result. 

But,there's no way to turn back. I have to accept everything and keep moving forward though I know it's the hardest thing ever to pursue as the past MEMORIES keep haunting me. "When you meet someone,get ready to lose him someday."

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Batch 29

"Only some pictures and memories will help me going through"