Feel Appreciated

Good morning guys! This morning is just an ordinary morning for me,nothing special but there was something irritable happened to me last night. Two friend of mines somehow have poured some sorrow powder into my heart. It was a very unpleasant moment.

Everyone wants to be appreciated. Even this psychology geeky names Maslow emphasis that human needs to feel that they are appreciated by people around them. Here is the evidence. 

This is what we call as Maslow's Hierarchy. It states a few stages of human needs. And,the most thing that human craves for is SELF-ACTUALIZATION or simply assumed as appreciation.

Sometimes,in life,I do feel unappreciated though I do something very well. It happens most of the time. Some people say world is cruel and I think it suits well to my life condition now.

For instance,a few weeks ago,my class were required to present about anything that related to health.Yes,I planned it very well with my friend,and it was a waste. We didn't manage to present in the way that we had planned. Yes,I felt angry,mad,sad and ... I think even the dictionary has ran out of words to describe my feeling at that moment.

But,the most upset moment was happening last night. I was eagered to chat with them. I thought I had been really care to know more about them. But,in the end,what did I get? Nothing. It seemed like my effort to dig deeper into themselves and tried to help them was such a big waste.

But,nothing I can do. They won't know what I feel. Currently,I'm very upset with what they did. 

And,because of that,a friend of mine thought that I was having PMS.

Distance

It's been almost nine months I stayed in Saser. Nine months without them beside me. Nine months without their laughter and all silly things that they love do.

Why I feel this? 

I feel incomplete. Some of my heart's pieces is missing. They left me with a bunch of memories. It only kill me. 

But,I'm optimistic enough to rise from this knock down and keep pursuing with my new life. I manage to go through. But,as times roll by,I realize about something.

I own fantastic classmates in Saser. They're super amusing and friendly. But,it only vanish my suffer temporarily. 

I just want to spend my time with all my friends...in Ipoh. Though I bring my phone to the school,but still it doesn't make the communication goes well. 

I just want to meet them,create double laughter with my good friends. I just hate this kind of virtual communication,because it doesn't make our interaction look okay.

I know,this entry won't change anything but at least I've expressed all my uneasy feeling about us...about our friendship.

Under The Moonlight

Sometimes,people don't really appreciate much about the beauty of night. They tend to ignore it and never realize,that the serenity can appear by staring and thinking of something at the bunch of stars.

Probably,people will think that I'm a weird guy as I love to watch the night's sky. That's what girl do while I'm a man and I shouldn't do that but who cares. As long it can bring my mind to the ease.

Nowadays,people own thousands of unsolved problems and yet they keep complaining. Their pessimistic thinking lead to unhappy life. They don't realize that something that looks petty is actually a good medicine to their unhappiness - watching the night sky.

Night - it's a time where everyone rests for recharging new energy to have a better day tomorrow. There's no hectic environment exists there during night. Only you,crickets,stars and moon. 

Just choose a right spot outside of your home. Watch the stars and meanwhile,listen to some good and slow songs. Think of your problems and it will vanish away gradually.

That's what I will do if I'm out of Saser where I have lots of time at home and I able to do those things,yeay! 

PS - Serenity hidden under the moonlight. Lie yourself under the bright moonlight and the serenity will penetrate into your soul.